It’s the day after our wedding party and I can’t seem to shake this overwhelming sadness. It hit me when trying to take a recovery nap this afternoon. I feel it in the chest and jaw area…and I feel like I’m going to suffocate. The sadness has to do with it all being over. It was the best party I could imagine. Friends and family from far away all in one place. Connections from so many different eras in our lives. And they were all there for us! It’s such a bittersweet feeling to know so many people care about you and want to spend their time with you. I just wish there was more time to talk about what they’ve been up to all these years, more time to laugh at who you were and what you did in the past together.
I keep wanting to go back to last night, but I know I cannot. Friends are in their cars and on planes heading away from here, getting further away with each minute. I’m not sure when we’ll get to see them again, most likely never like that, and that’s the part that’s really making me sad.